March Update

Well things went south… Details would be boring so here are the highlights 🙂

Parent Life

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  • breastfeeding beyond one
  • trying solids
  • teething
  • tantrums
  • clingy mommy only times

Food

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  • too much so I’ll show the healthy ish ones and avoid pics of pasta, buttery shrimp, fried stuff, cookies and muffins… (avoids eye contact)

Life Changes

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  • Weight: 230.2lbs
    • it is 6:38pm PST and I’ve been drinking lots of water but it’s still bad…
  • Health/ Fitness: exercised 4 out of 10 days (3/26 – 4/4)
    • big accomplishment considering I haven’t been this consistent in years!
  • Note: I was going to write “before pics” as the caption but I already started the journey so these were rightfully captioned “IP (in progress) pics”

Self Care & Balance

Life happened and I wasn’t being balanced. I haven’t been on the diet in weeks, was eating everything in sight (thanks Pinterest not so healthy food pins) and my weight showed it. As of Sunday March 26th, 2017, I stayed awake (son still wakes 2+ times per night), drank coffee possibly ate breakfast then prepared to walk. I didn’t let my son getting back up stop me. I dressed him in his track suit and strapped him into his stroller and off we went. This started a chain reaction which included exercising intentionally, weekly pampering, drinking more water  and eating meals with more attention to health. For now life seems to be all over the place but those are little things I can do no matter what.

What I learned:

  • Don’t forget about yourself
  • Don’t sweat the small stuff
  • Appreciate the present even if it isn’t ideal
  • As long as you’re alive you can change things but it is up to you if it changes for good or for bad

Weight & Stats – 2nd Month

Explanation (excuse) – As you can see there are no pictures, stats or measurements. The last week of the diet month was terrible. I could say Superbowl started me down this slippery week long binge but I’d be lying; there was more to it than that. I won’t give details because it doesn’t matter since it is an excuse. I’m not giving up or giving in. If it was easy I would’ve never gotten out of shape and unhealthy in the first place. I’ve set new specific goals and I plan on crushing them. I also plan to cheat wisely until I gain the willpower to cheat only on the planned day. This is the compromise I am allowing myself. If you’re physically healthy yet mentally deteriorating then what does it matter? I want balance and this compromise will allow me to find it in order to make a lifetime change and not a temporary one.

Goals for the Month:

  • Find something to replace emotional eating
    • Write down specific triggers even if it is as simple as boredom or I wanted xyz
  • Finish one workout DVD
  • Lose 4lbs

Weekly Details:

62 Days down (9 full weeks completed)

Week 1 (1/8*) – I failed this week… I cheated 3x on non-cheat days 😦 but I did ask my husband to force me to throw away my candy if I cheated again so my candy stash is no more. I still won’t give up this time. I’ve got goals!

Week 2 (1/15*) – Only cheated on my scheduled day!!! Winning 🙂

Week 3 (1/22*) – 2x but I know what happened. This was an emotionally intense week and I defaulted to my old habit of finding comfort in food.

Week 4 (1/29*) – 2x again but once was during a play date and I regret nothing.

Week 5 (2/5*) – All bad… Cheated all week long

*Weeks begin on Sunday because cheat day (Saturday) is the end of the diet week. I originally was counting by Monday – Sunday but that confuses me when it comes to making notes for a specific week.

What I learned:

  • Drink more water – succeeded
  • Incorporate exercise – failed which is why it is back on the list. Actually it would’ve continued to be on the list because I am going to set monthly fitness goals like the one I’ve listed for the coming month

 

 

Weight & Stats – 1st Month

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Stats* as of 1/12/17

Arms 16

Waist 43

Hips 49 1/2

Thighs 24 1/2

Weight 220

BMI 35.3%

*measurements are in inches and pounds and BMI is based on Weight Watchers scale

Changes:

  • Arms no change
  • Waist -4
  • Hips & Thighs -1.5
  • Weight -11
  • BMI -1.8

Goals for the Month:

  • Drink more water
  • Incorporate exercise

Weekly Details:

31 Days down (4 full weeks completed)

Week 1 – Excited but went to Red Lobster with my mom. I went right back to the diet for my next meal and still managed to lose an amazing amount of weight. (thanks to breastfeeding and period)

Week 2 – Husband talking me off the cheating edge. If it wasn’t for him I’m sure I would’ve given up.

Week 3 – I did terrible by cheating off and on the whole week but I didn’t quit. I got right back to it the next meal.

Week 4 – I had a plan. All of our meals were planned out and I had nuts, coffee and tea as my go to items when I felt like cheating. However that didn’t work… I cheated but regretted nothing because I enjoyed it!

What I learned:

Perfection doesn’t matter as much as improvement. I feel very good about not giving up this time and I know I’ll reach my goals if I don’t quit! I also realized weight loss without exercise could leave me dissatisfied with my end result… which is why I changed my goals to include exercise of some kind.

 

Bringing Healthy Back

I have a ton of life changes to update so look for weight, healthy lifestyle, food, date nights, home and my son. This post will be strictly about my weight and the healthy lifestyle changes I’ve made.

After taking the pictures below, I realized I NEED to lose weight in order to feel better, set a healthy example for my son and to get back to the body I had when I first met my husband. I only showed the side profile so I can see the progress my chin makes but other than that I’m still not brave enough to post my picture for the internet to see. Maybe one day I will but for now I want to focus strictly on weight rather than picking apart my facial flaws. Yes, I would sit on my computer obsessing over all the things I’d like to correct or change or wish I had but that destructive behavior is for another post that might never be written or published for public viewing. Drum roll please…

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Stats* as of 12/12/16

Arms 16

Waist 47

Hips 51

Thighs 26

Weight 231

BMI 37.1%

*measurements are in inches and pounds and BMI is based on Weight Watchers scale

Goals:

Look and feel better, weigh less than 200lbs by summer, no speific fitness goals yet

Method:

Tim Ferriss’ 4 Hour Body

Additional:

It’s been about 21 days. The first week I was full of excitement but I went to Red Lobster with my mom. I went right back to the diet for my next meal and still managed to lose an amazing amount of weight. The second week was full of my husband talking me off the cheating edge and if it wasn’t for him I’m sure I would’ve given up. Last week I did terrible by cheating off and on the whole week but I didn’t quit. I got right back to it the next meal. This week which will be the 4th week I have a plan. All of our meals are planned out and I have nuts, coffee and tea as my go to items when I feel like cheating.

Going forward I will be updating my progress the 12th of every month unless it falls on cheat day (Saturday). Cheats days will be spent eating everything that isn’t nailed down 🙂 Healthier me will see you next time.

 

Mommy’s Time Out Debate

Picture this: I used the French Press for coffee (see image below); my Keurig needs to be replaced. I had the television all to myself, the house was quiet and I could think about everything or nothing. Now… the house is awake and you are demanding my attention.

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I immediately changed your diaper, washed my hands, gave you gel for your teeth, let your brother outside then nursed you. I was running full speed ahead like my time out was a daydream. As I was nursing you, I felt the same battle raging within me on a loop. Do I relax and enjoy a mommy time out? Or do I take care of my to do list without interruption? I can’t do one without thinking about the other. So right there with you on my boob I realized I must find balance.

I don’t know how to turn off the part of my brain that says you must do everything. I don’t know how to enjoy one without regretting not doing the other. The only thing I can do without regret is take everyone’s advice about enjoying every minute with you. I try to hold on to the precious moments with you because I know they won’t last forever but I still need to find time and balance between all the roles I have. The only way to really be a good mom is to balance all aspects of my life. From now on I’ll make an effort to avoid the internal struggle and simply alternate between the two. Some times will call for a time out while others will be spent taking care of things around the house. Mommy loves you and from now one when you give me a break I’ll simply choose.

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