Picture this: I used the French Press for coffee (see image below); my Keurig needs to be replaced. I had the television all to myself, the house was quiet and I could think about everything or nothing. Now… the house is awake and you are demanding my attention.
I immediately changed your diaper, washed my hands, gave you gel for your teeth, let your brother outside then nursed you. I was running full speed ahead like my time out was a daydream. As I was nursing you, I felt the same battle raging within me on a loop. Do I relax and enjoy a mommy time out? Or do I take care of my to do list without interruption? I can’t do one without thinking about the other. So right there with you on my boob I realized I must find balance.
I don’t know how to turn off the part of my brain that says you must do everything. I don’t know how to enjoy one without regretting not doing the other. The only thing I can do without regret is take everyone’s advice about enjoying every minute with you. I try to hold on to the precious moments with you because I know they won’t last forever but I still need to find time and balance between all the roles I have. The only way to really be a good mom is to balance all aspects of my life. From now on I’ll make an effort to avoid the internal struggle and simply alternate between the two. Some times will call for a time out while others will be spent taking care of things around the house. Mommy loves you and from now one when you give me a break I’ll simply choose.
For most of my life I’ve had little to no interest in cooking. Sure I loved to eat but I had no desire to be the one cooking it. I viewed cooking as something I had to do rather than something I wanted to do. Here’s my timeline for somewhat reluctantly developing my cooking skills:
The only thing that really helped me to learn more was motherhood. Now that my son is here, I keep picturing him going over someone’s house and saying his mommy can’t cook like this. Or worse him not wanting to come home because mommy’s food sucks. I should say I’m not a terrible cook just an uninterested one. I could always cook simple things like baked chicken, most items from a box and rice among other things but I’ve never really enjoyed it. However my paranoia, son and new job (Domestic Engineer) have all helped to make me care. I owe a huge thanks to Pinterest for having tons of fun easy things to experiment with. I’ve been having so much fun cooking using different recipes that I wanted to dedicate an entire post to what I’ve been up to in the kitchen.
Same recipe I mentioned before except I adjusted the measurements to accommodate the amount of pumpkin I had left over
Most people I know have cooked one or both of these but this was my first time trying it
Simple, easy and tasty
I would definitely consider this a fad but it was fun to do this using only the microwave
Side note I have a Pinterest addiction in case you couldn’t tell 😉
September’s date night didn’t happen…
So I’ll insert a few of my favorite related Pins from Pinterest (original sources unknown) instead.
The Target pin is so true and we actually did this numerous times due to the second pin about buying a house which leads to the reason we’ll be having third pins often. LOL
Onward to October’s dates 🙂
A friend sent me the most amazing looking pin in the world (at that moment). It was Pumpkin Cobbler. It’s promise of ease and tastiness drew me in. I bought all of the ingredients the next day. I was determined to bake this as it seemed perfect for dessert. My husband was intrigued because he hasn’t seen me this excited about a recipe since discovering cauliflower bread. He took our son while I started. We didn’t directly work together but it was still a team effort. Our quick dinner of frozen pizza and wings was done and our cobbler was minutes away from completion. I quickly put dinner on our plates and tried hard not to rush to dessert. Whomp whomp… Hubby was too sick to eat it. Poor guy couldn’t even finish dinner. But as bad as I felt for him I was thrilled for my success!
I immediately cut myself a piece and was extremely pleased with both ease, taste and smell. Since he was feeling better after he slept a while he was able to have a piece. It wasn’t fresh out of the oven like I planned but he still said he enjoyed it. Then he went to sleep again so I didn’t count that as our date night.
One thing I discovered thanks to September’s fail and hubby getting sick was that we have a better chance of alone time in the morning during our son’s first nap. We didn’t do anything extravagant but it led to something exciting. A different version of the pumpkin cobbler recipe from Pinterest; pumpkin cobbler muffins. I wanted to make up for our precooked dinner earlier in the week due to my excitement over the cobbler so I decided to cook a homemade breakfast. It was faster, the first meal of the day and could be enjoyed while our son slept which meant we could actually spend this time together.
I warned him in advance I didn’t know the exact way to translate the recipe to muffins (individual servings) so it might not be as good as the original. While I prepared we talked about what we wanted to do for the day as well as things we wanted to do to the house as money allowed. Then we went our separate ways. He gamed and I baked. Once I was finished I emerged with sausage, potatoes, fried eggs and Pumpkin Cobbler Muffins!
Yummy! This recipe sparked a fire in me. Pinterest wasn’t only good for wasting a ton of time on things that looked pretty, sound good and were funny. Pinterest was actually useful. So I figured I’ll keep using Pinterest for fun recipes for in home date nights. Plus I can use it for Penny Date type ideas any time I need to come up with something outside of the home that’s adventurous and affordable. I must thank my friend and Pinterest for saving date night before it even became regular.
This blog is and always will be a way for my son (or any future children) to get to know me and hopefully to give anyone else some comfort that they aren’t alone. But I’ve been wondering… Should I include pictures? I’m still leaning towards none with faces but posting a few. My reasoning is you (my son) will have all of the ones with the faces included so having them for the world to see is unnecessary. On the other hand I’m sure I’ll want to show you your mommy’s progress as she gets healthy and shrinks down! Okay okay I just want to show my progress.
Wow you just attempted to roll over as I’m writing this (6/30/16)!! You didn’t but I’m excited now.
I’m going to be honest this is also about me and by golly I want to have evidence of how far I’ve come. Now I should be honest and say I was overweight before I being pregnant but I’d love to slim down and get even better than what I was 🙂 My constant silent goal since turning 26 was to improve in some way every year. Well I’ve been failing. Sure I’ve changed but it wasn’t necessarily an improvement. So now that you’ve arrived I feel as though my drive has been renewed. (Side note you’re angrily shaking the toys attached to the top of your play mat and it’s adorable). Must pause for undisclosed amount of time because my time for writing is up…
The pause was super long (7/25/16)! I honestly don’t remember everything I was going to write so I’ll sum it up based on what’s above.
- eventually post about my health and fitness journey
- post pics of my family but our faces will be covered/ not included
- figure out how to document buying our first home just in case we’ve moved by the time you’re old enough to read/ appreciate this
- post weekly about whatever is going on in my world because I need an outlet
- find an outlet because being a Stay At Home Mom is still strange for me (I’ve worked consistently for over a decade)
- live with purpose ( I won’t elaborate on that for now because I’m still determining what that means for me)
- use more memes because they’re funny
- side note: anyone know if you can find the source of a meme? I’d like to give credit where it’s due or ask permission. If not I’ll attempt to figure out how to create my own