Walking Our Dog

My original post was about our family Penny Date. Unfortunately I messed up importing the pictures and now have to wait to see if hubby can fix it. If he can, I’ll post it later on this month. If he can’t, I’ll recap it with a series of funny Pinterest memes.

So here’s my very mushy backup post…

Today you walked your dog for the first time. Daddy helped you get started then the two of you took off. I couldn’t get in any of the pictures so I turned the camera on myself right as I was watching you walk away with the biggest grin on your face. This simple moment felt so special because I realized you were growing up. You’re no longer the infant I cuddled and stressed about. Now you’re the little big boy that puts a smile (and wrinkles) on my face. You made me mature in a way that I didn’t know I needed. You reminded me that crunchy leaf piles should be jumped in and stomped on not just raked into the yard waste bin. You’re helping me slow down and focus on what’s important; enjoying life while fulfilling mental, spiritual and physical needs.

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Most important of all you’re showing me I only have a small window to enjoy putting tiny mask on you, pushing you in your Tonka truck and reading stories that you don’t fully understand. I need to stop trying to be the perfect SAHM I imagined and start enjoying being the imperfect mom that I am. You’ll continue to go through stages and I’ll continue to learn more and more as we navigate each one. But instead of picking apart everything I do I am going to simply chalk it up to experience and another lesson learned.

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In the words of our favorite book Love You Forever by Robert Munsch:

I’ll love you forever,

I’ll like you for always ,

As long as I’m living

my baby you’ll be.

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Random Visual Escape

I’ve been wrapped up in my feelings lately. From my own self-image to my titles (mom, wife, etc) to the state of the world. I feel caught up and unable to express myself so I choose to make a blog post of all the beautiful things I’ve seen recently. This is my random visual escape.

I am choosing to see beauty rather than drowning in sorrow.

I hope this post can be a relaxing retreat in this hectic world 🙂

Penny Date Day

 

 

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Taken from Pinterest
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Our Penny & Music
  1. We dressed casual since we only had a few hours until we had to pick up the mini and we forgot to grab a penny
  2. We grabbed a penny & let the internet randomly generate a number (18 turns)
  3. Wrote this on my arm so I didn’t have to keep opening Pinterest
  4. We alerted this since we kept going in circle
  5. We did then we restarted on foot!!

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Likes

  • Fun & interesting
  • Cheap as long as you have gas
  • Restarting on foot was great exercise and added a bit of intrigue as we’d never walked the area before

Dislikes

  • Can be annoying when you keep going in circles
    • this is why we altered it a bit
  • Better if you start in an area you aren’t familiar with
  • You should eat first to avoid being hangry… See last picture for our hangry fix:)
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Though beautiful to look at in person, we went by this same building 3x

My Notes for Thor Ragnarok

Audience: May not be suitable for children that scare easily

Bonus Scenes: Stay all the way until after the credits roll (all of them). Yes I know most people know this however due to the shocking number of people that left the theater I figured it would be worth mentioning

Quick Opinions:

  • definitely my favorite Thor movie
  • it is way funnier than the previous Thor movies
  • holds my attention without feeling rushed or dragging
  • Hela is awesome!!! In a villain kind of way 😉
  • Grandmaster is hilarious and very colorful
  • snacks of some kind are a must because this, like other Marvel flicks, is a long movie

Wig-ing Out

I bought a wig on Amazon!!

Brown Sugar Human Blended Lace Front Wig – BS206 (#SR2/REDVELVET) by ISIS HAIR

I’ve been wanting to do something different with my hair for a while now but I was a wishy washy mess when it came to making a decision. Finally what started as a trim turned into a cut which morphed into looking for a wig on Amazon. I spoke with my husband and this was the best routine to avoid any further scissor happy moments.

I looked up red wigs then human hair red wigs then affordable wigs and this pooped up some where during my search. I liked what I saw but was very uncertain about the color as I am of a darker shade and don’t like anything that makes me stand out too much. But after consulting with my husband I decided to take the plunge plus I knew my sister would look great with this color so it wouldn’t be a complete waste of money.

Below are pictures of the wig on me, packaging and instructions. I am by no means a wig expert but I used to buy a lot of them and often so I wanted to review this one based on the knowledge I’ve gained from previous experience.

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  • color looks okay on my skin tone but does take a confident person to wear as it is very bright
  • color is beautiful
  • lace seems short and somewhat stiff but very user friendly
    • I’m not sure how wide the lace part is on other wigs (this is my first lace front) but for my large head it seemed short
    • should mention I didn’t braid it down properly
  • full with minimal shedding

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  • standard wig packaging
  • no smell

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  • loved the instructions for installing the unit and washing
  • comes with double-sided tape

Overall I liked the wig but gave to my sister because I wasn’t comfortable with the color. I plan on buying the same wig in a different color and I will definitely buy more wigs from this brand/ seller.

While this post isn’t sponsored by anyone, I was able to buy it with gift cards I accumulated through taking surveys. I still worked for the gift cards but it wasn’t part of actual regular income more like things I do while my son is napping on me. I have also purchased other things this way. I will try to note when I do but if I forget you can always ask if you’re curious 🙂

Plants

I’ve never been one to garden. The best I’ve ever done was growing a bamboo which literally only required me to add or refresh the water every now and then. However once we bought our home I knew I wanted to try growing things.

I started off simple with established plants which were aloe and snake plants. My mom gave me the aloe which eventually grew large enough to split into 3 pots plus I found an offshoot (name?) at the root which is shown in a small pot on the counter in front of the big group of plants/pots. I bought 2 snake plants from Home Depot which I was super excited about because of how they grow. What I didn’t know was these particular leaves would never get any bigger because the leaves were damaged. This meant I would have to wait for new leaves until I could get the height I was hoping to achieve but I’m glad I didn’t give up because now they are in one pot and doing great! Sorry no picture but I’ll post it to my Instagram if I remember.

I moved on to other succulents because I was told they were hardy like aloe. Womp womp womp… They died because I left them outside in direct sun. Second attempt also not shown was succulents. I brought them indoors and put them in the window thinking they’d be fine but wrong again! The glass acted as a magnifier for the sun and the leaves burned. Thankfully I turned to YouTube and was able to save these; group of 3 pots in same green base.

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After the succulents stayed alive, I tried my hand at seeds. Wheatgrass (not shown) was my seed of choice because I was blending at the time and heard good things about adding it to smoothies. At first things went great! It grew exactly as stated on the package and was super fun to cut. I am allergic to fresh cut grass so this was as close as I could get to mowing a lawn without severe and potentially deadly consequences. That was short lived thanks to some kind of rodent getting into our house. I have no idea what type of rodent it was but boy did it love my wheatgrass. It destroyed all of my hard work but I was able to get rid of it by using the grass. The rodent is no more…

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My newfound seed love lead to basil and mint seed kits from Home Depot. I started with the mint which never actually grew because it was too crowded; I didn’t realize I wasn’t supposed to dump all the seeds into the jar at once… The basil managed to survive because I split the seeds between the jar and baby food jars which I only did so my son could have his own plants.  YAY sharing because if I didn’t I’m sure the basil would’ve had the same outcome as the mint. The basil is hard to see but it is still in the same jar; right side in front of the avocado seeds. Eventually I switched back to established plants: mint, peppers (6 types) and whatever purple-ish leafy plant that is. These are all shown. The mint I bought and the basil I grew are in the orange pot; I have more of each but that is the best pic. The best image of the pepper plants are the very last bottom pictures below.

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Now for the most exciting seeds! Avocado 🙂 I started them from avocados we used as a side dish. I cleaned, added 3 toothpicks per seed then put them in clear glasses and left in the window. I watched YouTube videos after I started them and learned I was supposed to peel them. I did afterwards and they turned out fine. There is a close up of both in the glasses plus a follow up of putting them in dirt; pictures above in the large round black containers. Well that is it. A long lengthy rundown of all the plants I had and have. Any follow ups will be pictures only or maybe just random posts on Instagram  @jtm2015.wordpress

Wedding Ring

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What my husband said:

  • It’s just a ring
  • It’s not a big deal
  • It’s not like you did it on purpose
  • I wanted to upgrade you anyways now I’ll just be doing it sooner

What I said:

  • It was my ring though
  • I think it’s a big deal
  • No but I should’ve taken it in for maintenance like they recommended
  • Really?!

I was thrilled when he said he wanted to upgrade my ring but then we went shopping… While going from store to store I thought about the whole day surrounding actually getting my ring. We took off of work, got the marriage license then headed to the store to look at rings and I ended up getting it right then and there 🙂 I was so happy and replacing the ring felt like I was trying to replace memories so I stopped looking. Hubby came up with the bright idea to double check the warranty even though it technically expired. Well guess what Le Vian has a lifetime warranty! It is going to take a while to get it back and I was without it during our anniversary but I’ll still have my ring. My memories remain intack and when I eventually get an upgrade it’ll be a fun surprise rather than a replacement 🙂

The Climber

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Stay there; its okay mommy is coming. How’d you get up there? Ugh it doesn’t matter just sit down!

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He looks innocent enough however this smiling face decided timeout wasn’t for him then climbed onto his changing table and got stuck. I tried not to think of all the horrible things that could’ve happened while he was up there but I’m a paranoid person so my imagination soared. As I pretended to be calm on the outside, I smiled and told him he was going to get his big boy bed. What I was really doing resembled the panic from the father on Inside Out when his wife was trying to non-verbally communicate. I was freaking out. I wasn’t ready for my baby to be in a toddler bed. I mean is he even a toddler??

Once I collected myself I realized he’s going to keep growing unless something horrible happens. And growth is a good thing not only physically but in every aspect of our lives. I’m sure I’ll have way more moments like this as he gets older but I’ll try to make sure I encourage his growth and maturity and smile knowing his father and I are doing the best we can to make him a productive happy human 🙂

On a not so mushy note I now have to find a better place for timeout so my little climber doesn’t hurt himself…

Nail Polish & Unicorns

WARNING: This is a random emotional dump so if you want more then read something else.

It has been rough in every sense: emotional, physical, mental and spiritual. The toughest being wondering if I have PPD or am having violent mood swings. The other realizing I am failing spiritually.

Instead of continuing to drown in my emotional state, I started to workout which I mentioned in my March Update post. I’ve since committed to working out at least 10mins daily in hopes I’ll improve my mood and alleviate stressing over things that are beyond my control. Well I was wrong. It has boosted my mood however the same problems exist and come flooding back as soon as the high of the workout ends. Today was no different…

Started the day by exercising. I’m currently doing Slim in 6 but I’ll do a separate post once I’ve completed the 6 weeks. Played with my son who was screaming MOM at the top of his lungs by the time I was done then clapped for me after I picked him up. We watched family vlogs until I got in the shower. I prepared for my appointment and this is where things started going wrong. The appointment was mislabeled, changed then rescheduled all after I had shown up for said appointment. I decided not to complain and just continued onward to lunch. The restaurant closed at 2 which was especially annoying as we’d been waiting to go back since Saturday plus we paid for parking but we found a different place within walking distance so the parking wasn’t a total waste. At this point hubby and I were both annoyed at the events, realized we’d forgotten something due to our extreme irritation and both expressed our grievances which took up all of our lunch. That is when I told him we needed to do something to wash off the stink of these events in order to salvage the rest of our day.

First stop was taking care of what we’d forgotten and that felt pretty good because yet again we’d hit a personal/ couple goal. Then on to Starbucks for the new Unicorn Frappuccino which my hubby described as a sweet tart ice cream. It wasn’t the best thing I’ve ever had but the name mixed with the colorful appearance put an instant smile on my face and changed my perspective.

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The Unicorn boosted my mood and lead me to do something I haven’t done in what seems like months; give myself a mini manicure & pedicure. I call it a mini because I didn’t soak or massage beforehand I simply cleaned up my cuticles, clipped and shaped my nails then polished. I was running late for my religious meeting (totally my fault I was 30min off…), messed up on a nail and ended up having an unpolished thumbnail but we made it. Once we got back home and were in comfy clothing, I polished my thumbnail and for some reason the whole day felt right. The weather was perfect (rainy and cloudy my favorite no joke or sarcasm intended), we made it to our meeting, our son was asleep, my fingers and toes looked nice, my hair was somewhat done (read better than all over my head or in a knotted bun) and we were relaxing together watching Founders which kind of turned me off of McDonald’s not that I frequented the place.

However my wow moment didn’t come until after the movie. I was deciding between going to bed and reading. I needed sleep desperately but I hadn’t read in silence in a while. Reading won; Chicken Noodle Soup for the Soul pt 2. As I was reading the short stories, I couldn’t stop looking at my nails. I caught myself admiring the color and the time I took to do it even with all the interruptions. Finally I came across a story that (like the book had warned/ suggested) stopped me in my tracks and helped me appreciate my day even more. I closed the book right that second so I could reflect on the emotions the story evoked. Finally the WOW moment. I was happy because of two simple things: Unicorn Frap and my nails being polished. It wasn’t huge but it sent me straight to my Gratefuls book which I hadn’t used since late 2015. I wrote down a condensed version of this post with a few extra more personal details and here I am. I felt so inspired I decided to add writing in that book to my list of things to do. I’m hoping it’ll force me to find at least one thing to be grateful for daily beyond the basics that everyone is grateful for namely food, clothing, shelter, family and good health.

I’m not sure if any one thing will help or if I need to see my doctor to make sure this isn’t PPD but I do know all these little changes will only help me even if it doesn’t fix everything.

March Update

Well things went south… Details would be boring so here are the highlights 🙂

Parent Life

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  • breastfeeding beyond one
  • trying solids
  • teething
  • tantrums
  • clingy mommy only times

Food

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  • too much so I’ll show the healthy ish ones and avoid pics of pasta, buttery shrimp, fried stuff, cookies and muffins… (avoids eye contact)

Life Changes

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  • Weight: 230.2lbs
    • it is 6:38pm PST and I’ve been drinking lots of water but it’s still bad…
  • Health/ Fitness: exercised 4 out of 10 days (3/26 – 4/4)
    • big accomplishment considering I haven’t been this consistent in years!
  • Note: I was going to write “before pics” as the caption but I already started the journey so these were rightfully captioned “IP (in progress) pics”

Self Care & Balance

Life happened and I wasn’t being balanced. I haven’t been on the diet in weeks, was eating everything in sight (thanks Pinterest not so healthy food pins) and my weight showed it. As of Sunday March 26th, 2017, I stayed awake (son still wakes 2+ times per night), drank coffee possibly ate breakfast then prepared to walk. I didn’t let my son getting back up stop me. I dressed him in his track suit and strapped him into his stroller and off we went. This started a chain reaction which included exercising intentionally, weekly pampering, drinking more water  and eating meals with more attention to health. For now life seems to be all over the place but those are little things I can do no matter what.

What I learned:

  • Don’t forget about yourself
  • Don’t sweat the small stuff
  • Appreciate the present even if it isn’t ideal
  • As long as you’re alive you can change things but it is up to you if it changes for good or for bad